In my readings, I am channeling (translating energy) for people. They’re channeling too, we all are. We are emitting a signal and then translating that signal into Meaning.
What makes spiritual readings, or divination special then? Why is there an interest in this type of work?
Channeling (the way I do it) is meant to connect with the best information that is available to be received by the recipient. This means I have to go to the best possible frequency and “see” things from that perspective.
In our every day world, we may shake our fist up at the sky, desperate for answers. “Show me!” “Guide me!”
We may drop to our knees in futility, hoping for a gentle light to lull us back into warmth and safety.
Why don’t the answers come? Why do we translate energy into seeming riddles, why do we gather signs and clues as to what the universe is trying to tell us?
I remember once saying into the Nothingness, “If you’re so great, why can’t you just give me a straight answer? Why does it have to be so esoteric? Why can’t you just show me the way, why can’t you give me what I want? If the universe is so abundant, why is it so hard to get this thing I need?”
I enjoyed this release of frustration and confusion. And it compelled me to ponder those very questions.
I looked out into the fields of nothingness, and I followed where the answers led. I saw that there are seldom straight answers because we do not live in a straight reality. It curves into itself everywhere you look. It exemplifies itself as it sees itself. As you look to understand, you translate energy into the meaning of the understanding you seek.
When the universe speaks, it speaks as Many. One word, one voice, that expresses into a ray of infinity. Imagine the answer coming to you through the sun’s rays. And where ever the light touches, it speaks your answer.
Life gives you answers by showing itself to you, and this expression is everywhere you look, because life is everywhere you look. You cannot say, “yes but ignore everything else and just answer me from somewhere else.”
As though life would part the seas of that which-it-is and in the static of nothingness, bring to you a singular vision.
Oh wait, it does do that! That happens all the time too. But where are you when it happens? Usually immersed in the very life you’re trying to disregard to see “truth”.
And so the spirit of life follows you around, answering your questions through demonstration and through visions. And where are you? Where is the receiver?
There is no answer that hangs, solitary and independent from you. Every answer is a collaboration. It needs you to translate it, to give it meaning. And it exists in many varieties, depending on where and how you are translating it. Every message needs a receiver.
Do not search for the message. It cannot be apart from You, its receiver. It’s better to ask, “what am I really wanting, what is it I’m really asking for?” and “With which mind am I translating the response?”
Look to see, who is the You that is translating the message? Do you feel light, buoyant and joyful? Yes, then you’ll receive a version of that message that relates to that state of buoyancy. What happens when you are heavy once again? Once stress and listlessness have descended upon you.
Is that message still applicable? Has the message changed?
Seek nothing, because now you know that all you seek is dependent upon the Receiver.
When I channel in a reading, where am I going? Am I going into your bitterness, your sadness, your limitation? Am I staying in those places and speaking to you the message of Life from those places? No.
I can go far, far away from the places that feel the most heavy and remind you of your light. Even better, I can swoop down a bit and find a middle ground between the lightest of light and the most dense. Looping and weaving in efforts to direct your attention to Something Better.
We are master translators of energy. It is all that we’re doing here really, all of existence is expression and translation. And so when there is discomfort in a translation it’s easy to say, “well, look somewhere else. Translate something else.”
Why is it hard to shift that attention?
The answer is also easy. The translation of energy implies harmonization. When you harmonize with a vibration or frequency, to some extent you Become that vibration. The longer you translate similar frequencies and vibrations, the more you harmonize with them and identify a “part of you” with them.
You don’t just shift your attention easily in some cases because you think part of you is inside that vibrational cluster that you no longer enjoy. That is natural, the identification with something because you’ve vibrated on the same frequency for a long time. Or perhaps came to believe that you were bound to a certain cluster of vibrations.
The truth is, you are not bound to anything that you perceive. Even in what you hate most, there is distance and choice. At the heart of the most hated, is the light of Being. And just in front of that light, a scramble of vibrations. An energy cluster of “meaning”. Streams of thoughts, words, and associations.
The most hated does not exist as much as the beloved does not exist, what “exists” is something far greater. It is the relationship between You and that which you are translating.
Imagine someone you dislike, Who are they? Where do they exist? Are they the light behind, or the cluster of streams that dances before that light?
Hm. But who they are is only that way as you know them. As you give them meaning and association. As you highlight streams within that cluster and translate them through your unique cluster…and so give them a response. A “yes” or “no”.
It follows then, that the most important thing about this person is what you think of them. If you look in their direction and feel repulsed, that is your particular response because of how you are translating whatever you are highlighting in their cluster.
You cannot really “know them”, because their cluster is massive. What you know is what has become highlighted for you, through you. You could say, what I see in you, I don’t like. Is it because of the eyes that are looking or because of what those eyes see? It doesn’t matter.
It matters to say, I see the light that breathes this creation into Being. I see the cluster of streams that is enlivened by this breath, and how that cluster dances with a rhythmic ebb and flow. And I see myself, I see how when I connect with this dance, I don’t like it. I don’t want to dance with it.
How beautiful then is the story of a beloved? Then you say as you gaze at a person or an experience: I see the light that breathes this creation into Being. I see the cluster of streams that is enlivened by this breath, and how that cluster dances with a rhythmic ebb and flow. And I see myself, I see how when I connect with this dance, I love it! I want to dance with it until we’re spinning at the speed of light in this joyful exchange.
Do you look into the cluster of that which you don’t like and try to uncover an answer? Do you stare into the abyss of futility and hope for light to re-emerge? Or do you move your gaze to where the light already exists? Do you lend your heart to what is light and buoyant, or do you let it sink with heaviness and hope that the darkness will resuscitate its life?
You are a translator of energy. You are not bound to anything. You are a Chooser. A Selector. And when the heaviness comes, or the confusion, or the desperation for an answer – please remember, “I am Choice itself.” Invoke Choice. It is your power.
As you feel worn down or exhausted or sorrowful, please remember that you have the power of Choice. Say to yourself, “I am choice. I have the power of choice, and I invoke the power of Choice.”
You are not bound to any state of experience, even if you’ve vibrated its frequency in the past. Vibrating a frequency of the Undesired is not a vow of allegiance to such a frequency.
I’d vowed allegiance to all kinds of states without realizing. The state of depression, disappointment, powerlessness, obedience. I vibrated in those places for so long I thought, “oh this must be me. this must be where I live.” But it was a choice all along. I didn’t know.
And life’s unfolding revealed Truth to me once again, “Heba you were always free to choose.”
There are endless, valid reasons why we get “stuck” in feeling states that are undesirable. And when the readiness comes to let go and remember Choice, freedom is here and waiting. The sadness will come and you’ll say, “Oh hello. I must be choosing sadness right now. That’s ok, when I’m ready I’ll choose something else.”
And when you ask for guidance or for an answer you’ll remember, ‘oh I have to choose where I am. Where I am is in direct relationship to the shape of the answer that comes.’
When you call home, when you call to Source, you’ll remember to dial on the clearest line you can find. You’ll say, “I call that which I am, and so that is what will appear.”
And when you’re feeling down you’ll say, “I remember choice, that I am in-Choice. I invoke the power of choice. Choice, remind me of my light. Spirit [self], find me the clearest path. Let me travel by choice to the light that calls.”
Every day, you will become more and more of the magic you seek. Your words will be effortlessly encoded with light and truth. You will walk, not above nor below. You will walk through the fields of shadow and fly in the skies of light, as you live an ordinary, extraordinary life.
A flower will bloom inside your heart and you’ll feed it with love and compassion and movement. And when the heaviness comes, you won’t be afraid. You’ll experience it as a color, as variety, you’ll remember Choice – and even in the heaviness you’ll remember you’re light.
With Love,
Heba
❤