Thank you, a mantra.

Breathe in, breathe out.

Seated comfortably, window open, a light breeze shakes the curtains.

I close my eyes to relax. I wanted relief. I wanted a kind of peace that my sleep wasn’t providing.

Hmm.

I quieted my body. I say, “It’s ok. We’ll just sit here for a while, it’s ok.”

My thoughts and ideas drifted around me.

I said, “Hmm. It’s ok. We’ll just sit here for a while.”

I let my mind jump and glide and skip, as I tried to find the quiet behind my thoughts.

It’s there, a blanket of quiet.

Shhh.

Hum.

There it is.

My mind plays the movies of my life again. Beautiful pictures and streams glide across my consciousness.

I say, “Thank you.”

I say,

“Thank you Mind. Thank you streams. Thank you for carrying the script of my life. Thank you for holding those pictures and scripts so lovingly. Thank you for your hard work. Thank you for your generosity and steadfastness. Thank you for always being there for me. Thank you for giving me a movie to be a part of.”

I wasn’t upset at the chaos of thoughts and pictures leaping around my consciousness. I knew they were important. I knew they meant well. Without these stories, I couldn’t have the satisfaction of a certain kind of life. Specific, personal stories that I was invested in.

I saw these thoughts like an array of beautiful white and gray clouds in a vast sky.

I took a breath and brought my attention below the clouds, where the sky is clear and steady.

Breathe in, breathe out.

Peace.

I felt grateful for the peaceful, endless sky. I felt grateful for the endless rumbling movement of clouds streaming in. Shaping and reshaping themselves into color and texture and noise.

Om. Peace.

What a beautiful view.

I invite you to try a mantra in your meditation. It can be anything you like. A sound or an easy phrase.

It can be “om” or “hum” or whatever feels good to you. Today I chose “thank you”.

So I let my thoughts dance and I let my attention drift towards “thank you” when I could.

In meditation, you’re looking for Space. A bit of space between your identity, which is mostly formed by consistent thoughts and a feeling-reaction to those thoughts. And the place where you are identity-less.

Where meaning is relaxed away from thought, so there is less pressure to tend to those thoughts.

Breathe in, breathe out.

As the preasure lifts, you find space. Space to breathe into the rest of who you are. That which is quiet, peaceful, well, whole and grounded in eternal life.

I hope that today you can find those spaces between thought. The space between sound. And that you can rest in those spaces, breathing in, breathing out.

With <3,

Heba

Bathing in Light

[Disclaimer: I am not a medical professional of any kind. I am not a therapist or counselor. I am an energy worker. Everything I write is only my personal experience. For professional guidance, please ask a licensed professional for all things health and mental health related. Be safe, be well, you are loved. ❤ )

Sometimes we’re doing okay at life, but certain subjects feel quite dark or troublesome.

In a vast field of lush calm and joy, there could be a few spots of barren soil.

What to do with those icky spots?

Do they bring your mood down when you feel good? Do you try not to think about them, but is it sometimes unavoidable?

Come with me in the practice of “bathing in light”.

This is for those sticky spots where you need some extra help.

I want you to imagine the thing or person that’s bothering you. Focus more on the “situation”, rather than specifics.

Meaning, how you generally feel when you think about the situation.

Notice if how you’re feeling or what you’re thinking has a color. Does it feel close or far away? If you associated the situation with a shape, which shape would you choose?

Circle, triangle, square? Or another?

I want you to assign the situation a color, a shape, and relative distance from where you are.

This is not a physical distance, it’s in your mind. So it’s how close or far away it feels.

Good!

Do you have those three things?

In your mind, imagine your situation and call it what it is. For example: gray, blocky triangle, medium closeness.

The words don’t matter that much, it just matters that you know what you mean.

You’ll notice the situation now has borders. A vague outer limit to how far it stretches. You can see where it “lives” and that it is contained by your identification of it.

Call to you Divine Light. You can say God’s Light, Divine Light, whatever you choose. Whatever feels good. Name any gods or messengers that feel good to you.

You are calling upon their light specifically, so make sure you include the word “light”.

Also bring in the Sun. Imagine a giant ball of light, like the sun, in very close contact with your “situation”.

For example, my gray triangle would be in my mind’s eye, and the sun would be right above it.

I would imagine that giant sun to be 2 to 3 times as large as the triangle. It vibrates and moves further and closer to the triangle. It seeps into the triangle, blasting it with light.

The light from the sun is seeping into the triangle on all sides, as well as underneath the triangle.

Divine Light is also there, it’s moving inside the triangle. It’s lighting it up from the inside out.

Spend some time, steady, using this light bathing. Easy and steady. If the situation begins to feel stronger than the light, enlarge the sun.

Call again, say, “Divine Light, Divine Light, Divine Light.”

Or I prefer, “God’s Light, God’s Light, God’s Light.” (I use that term when I feel like I need a higher level of assistance.)

You can even say things like, “Light come illuminate this, help me to bring this to a higher vibration. Help me to stay in God’s Light in this situation.”

“I allow beautiful, divine, white light to seep and spill and permeate this whole situation. I am a willing participant to the light. I don’t give space to the dark.”

This is all easy and steady. It’s not performative, it’s not over the top. It’s easy, it’s steady. If you’re emotions are running too high, back up. Take a breath. Come back to this another time.

Try doing this when you are in contact with the situation, or it’s nearby, or you randomly start to think about it. You can do it quickly or spend a few minutes doing this light bathing.

Ideally, this wouldn’t take more than about 5-10 minutes max.

It’s better to spend 2-3 minutes here and there light bathing. Even a few seconds here and there once you understand the practice.

The point is, of course, keeping it light. 😉

Most of the things that bother us, they come across our consciousness many times in a day. A few minutes at a time here and there.

And in those scattered minutes, we reaffirm how we feel about them. Scared or worried or angry.

So here you are, flipping the script. Taking those same few minutes here and there, every day, to raise the vibration around those “troubles”.

Let’s add a bit of truth here, what is really changing?

Is it the person? The thing or experience that’s a “problem”?

What is in the dark? Is it the problem itself or…something else?

I’ll whisper to you the answer.

(It’s your thoughts about it.)

When you interact with the problem, you lower your vibration. You allow things like fear or anger to come forward.

It becomes a practice. If you dislike Betty, every time Betty walks in you’ll engage your practiced response.

That response includes lowering your vibration to a place of disgust, resentment, and fear.

You lower yourself for a lot of different reasons, but for now, those reasons don’t matter.

You just have to interrupt the practice, interrupt the response. Stop the lowering of your energy that allows the lower vibrations to express.

So really you’re saying to the universe, to God, to Divine Light:

“This situation compels me to lower myself to icky-feeling thoughts. I understand why that’s happened. I extend compassion and understanding to myself. Now, please help me to rise again. Help me to allow what’s correct. What’s correct is the vibration of God’s Light. It encompasses all things. It heals all things. It elevates all things. Let this situation be healed and elevated, by helping me to allow light where I’ve allowed darkness. Thank you so much.”

This is a transformative practice. Meaning, it takes some time. It has to be repeated. You don’t need to worry about the results of the practice or what it will “do” for the situation.

That’s not your business, that would be like telling a tree how to grow.

All you’re doing is allowing light back into a place where darkness temporarily took hold. The light will take care of all things.

Allow your thoughts, words, and actions to be guided by light. Let all things find their place naturally.

This is a transformative practice. Meaning, it might feel strange. You might prefer to feel fear or anger, rather than bathe something in light.

This is okay. This stems from self-protection as well as a practiced response.

Just be easy with yourself, lead with love. Try a little bit at a time. Remind yourself that you are a powerful being.

This is just one path, one practice, of so many. See how it feels.

With <3,

Heba

The Unspeakable.

There exists a word somewhere that I can’t yet find.

It’s something like bravery, something like strength, something like focus.

It’s persistent and tenacious, it’s holding your breath under water as long as you can.

What’s the word?

When you’re about to go on stage for the first time, needing to remember your lines.

When you open the restaurant door, prepared to meet your date for the first time.

Standing on a high diving platform, readying yourself for the jump.

It’s an assembling of energy and focus. A gathering of focused attention. And this takes something, a bravery or strength.

This is the feeling of seeing your life as it is, and internally holding to a different vision.

It’s being mocked and feeling hurt, but remaining loyal to an inner vision where you are loved and respected.

That kind of “dual vision” is an art as much as it is a training. It’s stretching, it’s strength, it’s endurance.

I remember a walk at my favorite park when I was thinking of the reality of my current life. I remembered how I disliked certain things.

I thought of how disgruntled I was; I found it difficult to keep my thoughts in a helpful vibration.

I envisioned where I wanted to be, how I wanted to feel, and it felt impossible. “It’s too far away. I can’t get there.”

But every day I tried. I would imagine, and take a deep breath, and practice that vibration for however long I could.

It felt like my current perception of my reality kept trying to suck me back in. So there I was, standing in the park, wrestling two worlds.

As though I was standing with my arms outstretched, one hand holding my current reality, while my other hand held the new.

I felt the pull of the old, and with this undefined Word, I rose through the pull and shifted my focus to the new.

It took something, something like effort or strength. But a different kind of effort. A force that we don’t speak about.

I felt stretched between 2 worlds, somewhere in between and also in both. I turned to the new and saw it with a different kind of vision. One that was determined and sure and strong.

I stayed in this suspended state as long as I could, practicing. Feeling the pull of the old, but rising through it. Stretching for the new and steadying into that vibration, into that vision.

It felt like I was holding my breath or balancing on a shaky tight rope. At any moment, I would have to let go. But I just needed to focus and stay steady for as long as I could.

And every time I did this, my new vision would come to life. It would happen fairly quickly.

How long can you stay steady in the vibration of where you want to be, while still lovingly tending to where you are?

It’s an art and a practice in an unspoken force.

There is something inside of us, or that travels with us, that allows us this practice. The ability to observe and live in two worlds. To stand in one and stretch towards the other.

Have you experienced this “force”? How would you describe it?

Can we become better focusers, more adept at stretching into desired reality?

Comment your thoughts below.

<3,

Heba

Solar Systems

Close your eyes.

Think of someone you really like. Think of someone you don’t prefer to spend time with. Think of someone you worry about.

Try this with all 3 variations of relationship:

Everyone you see around you is a solar system. A spherical solar system, and the person that you see is at the center.

They are their sun. Around their body is space, some objects, circling debris. Around that, gases and atmosphere.

You see layers of thick atmosphere that lay beneath the spherical outer lining of their solar system.

Imagine that inside of the spacious sphere, there is white light. It’s pearlescent, cloudy, yet clear. A beautiful, thick white light.

You don’t know what it feels like. Is it warm or cold? What does it smell like? What does it feel like on their skin?

You don’t know, because you’re in your own solar system.

As you observe them, from where you stand, you notice that it feels emotionally good to see that white light with them. It seems nice.

You look to see the space between your solar system and theirs. Yes, there is a space. And then you move your sight to the outer lining of their sphere. It looks protective and strong.

You gaze at the atmosphere inside, it’s rich and plentiful with color and activity.

You shift your vision and notice that white light – it permeates everything in there.

At the center, you see them. The person you know, or have feelings about. From inside of your own solar system, you wave. They wave back.

Practice this, and remember how it feels.

Notice what changes for you as you try this with different people, different relationships. What are you feeling? What are you noticing?

Now, when you’re around these people, try to see not just what’s in front of you, but remember their solar system. How full it is, and the space that resides between yours and theirs.

If it’s someone you like, feel how they thrive in their beautiful, spacious sphere. They’re empowered, taken care of, self-sufficient.

If it’s someone you don’t like, notice how you don’t really affect each other. They have their own things, their own sun, their own atmosphere. It’s nice to have space between. To know they’re taken care of according to their system, and the same goes for you.

If you worry about someone, any time you feel that ‘worry’, repeat: “They are their own solar system.”

They have their own radiant sun, their own healing light, echoes of wisdom and infinite intelligence throughout their system. They are blessed, just like you are blessed.

Two blessed solar systems, existing to experience life and emotion and creativity.

Try this and let me know what you think.

<3,

Heba

Lord Help Me.

Lord help me, thank you.

If you counted all the names given to Divine Spirit around the world, you would find thousands. We hold that spirit close to our hearts, or far away on a distant cloud, and everything in between.

Depending on how I’m wanting to connect with that source energy, I call it different things.

I say God or Lord when I want the most amount of divine intervention and the least amount of personal attachment to the process.

I discovered this about myself last year, when the waters of my life rose too far above my river banks. In the midst of the floods, I only knew one word-and that word was God.

I didn’t grow up with any connection to those three letters, g-o-d. We called divine spirit by many names growing up, and that one never came up.

I learned it as I got older, studying different faiths and belief systems. I learned about it in groups, where I learned to turn to that three-letter word for serenity and courage and wisdom.

I say God when I’ve done all that I can do. When I’ve walked as far as I could, and I’ve reached my capacity.

I say God in acknowledgement of: “I’ve walked far and steady. I’ve given all that I can. This is as far as I know how to get on my own, will you light the path ahead?”

Will you light the path ahead?

And the answer is always, “Yes.”

I’m willing to walk past where I’ve walked before, will you light the path ahead?

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I notice now when I’m having “low-vibration” thoughts. I don’t care so much about what the thoughts are, I just know where they came from. I know that I feel scattered or angry or vengeful.

And I say, “Woah, that’s not where I want to be.”

Who cares what the thoughts are saying? They aren’t really “saying” anything. They’re indicating where my attention is focused – somewhere icky.

And that icky place has a huge well, full of icky-feeling thoughts to bring forward.

There are so many practices to use to move away from that place or pause and shift gears. I use them all, some work better than others at different times.

When there is something that is extra tricky to move past, I say: “Mind, help me shift gears. Mind, shift to a more beautiful space. Mind, help me let go of this story.”

And when the thoughts begin again, I say “thank you”.

Noticing those thoughts without being entangled in them is movement in the right direction. Even saying “thank you” instead of fighting helps to soothe things, helps to shift the mood.

Tonight, as I noticed my thoughts heading in a low direction, I spontaneously said, “Lord, help me. Show my thoughts the path of light.”

I’d never thought to ask God for help in guiding my thoughts. It seems like my responsibility, my private domain. Wouldn’t it be silly to ask for help for something so small as a thought?

But it felt good, it felt wise. Wise to know when to ask for help. Wise to know that small things add up to big things. Wise to know that any time or attention spent somewhere that isn’t for the highest good, is not a good idea.

I invite you to try asking for help. Not when you’re panicked, not when you’re desperate, but when you’re sure you would like some help.

When you say, “Actually, here. Right here, I could use some help.” Not when you’re crying or screaming, but when you’re ready. When the door of your heart is open and you’re willing to receive.

Make sure to say it clearly and out loud, tap into your heart and feel that connection you have to spirit. Maybe you feel it as angels or source energy or just a calm, soothing place in your being.

Say to that space, “Hello, I would actually like help with [insert here]. I think you could help by providing [insert here]. And that would feel really good. Thanks so much. Love you.”

It’s important that this doesn’t feel like a wish into the clouds, or an attempt at manifesting something you don’t believe.

Find those times. Have the intention to recognize these moments. These are moments when you’ll know what you need. And you’ll sense what might help get you what you need.

They’ll be quiet and calm. All of a sudden you’ll think of something simple, a need or wanting that you have. And suddenly you’ll think of a potential pathway to get you closer.

For example, I might have the idea, “I’d like to write more blog posts.” And it might be followed by, “I would just need to spend time every day to sit and write.”

And the asking might look like, “Could you please help me remember to sit and write when I’m inspired? That would be really great. I’d like to write for a little bit every day if possible. That’s what I would like. I’d like to feel light, easy, and joyful as I write. Could you help with that please? Thanks so much!”

Once you start finding those moments, they’ll come more and more often. You’ll feel as though you have assistance in all of life’s affairs, and when your flood waters run too high…

“Lord help me, thank you.”

<3,

Heba