You can’t find it, because it’s not lost.
You can’t search for it, because it’s already here.
I closed my eyes and asked, “tell me about my love” and I flipped to a page in my Tao Te Ching. It read:
The Mysterious One is the source of the universe. She is continually, endlessly giving forth life, without effort.
I thought, okay, that’s accurate. That does sound like Love. But, tell me about my lover.
And as I revised the question, my thoughts began to shift direction.
So, a lover is Love made manifest. One of the many ways that divine essence expresses itself.
I realized then a series of fascinating truths.
You can never be without your love (defined here as a physical person), because you can’t be without the essence of love itself. And they are in fact, an expression of that Love. That essence forged into a physical manifestation.
The human or humans that you call your loves cannot be put on trial, or judged for who they are as individuals. They are free, whole and full within themselves as individual beings. We cannot judge a person, only the relationship with the person.
And when we judge or reflect into the relationship with a person, we are actually looking at our own relationship with divine essence.
Lastly, love can never be held in a static space. We can never expect another to be the same, essentially. If we look closer at what Essence is, that invisible thing that breathes life into all that is, it never holds steady in static form. It is always, by all definitions, Alive. Dynamic. Life never stops pulsating and moving.
How can we expect that which manifests from that dynamic essence to stay the same? How can we hold firmly to that which is renewed constantly by the breath of life? We can’t. We love like we breathe. Easy, always renewing, always circulating.
In this, love is never ceasing. It is always renewing.
Where does love go?
The essence of love expresses into your life where it’s most called for, where your attention is flowing and where its Breath would be of most benefit. It moves like the waves of Starling murmurations in the sky. And when we allow for this flow to be, to trust that Love knows us and what we want and is only providing benefit, we find ease in the shifts of expression.
We allow Love to express over here one day, and over there the next. Knowing that if we’re easy with it, if we flow along with that Breath, we won’t get lost in Where It’s Not.
Love does not know absence. Because it is always where it is. It cannot be without itself and is always expressing into our lives. It shifts and morphs like a chameleon or an octopus to embody endless formations of Love Expressed.
Where is Love expressing in your life right now? Through people? Experiences? Insights? Animals?
I would say, “Thank you, Love. I see you. Thank you so much. That’s beautiful.”
And then think, “You know me so well. You know what I like. I’ll just let my gaze follow your essence, knowing that it can only lead me to more love, in endless varied forms. And for sure, for sure, for sure, toward those forms that please me most. Thank you, Love”