What happens when doubt dissipates?
Do you know what it is I do? I sit with people and I enter a very relaxed place, an altered state. I let truth flow outward to the person across from me.
One of the very first hurdles I had to cross over was Doubt. Am I getting the right message? Am I relaxed enough? Am I saying the right thing? Are they feeling okay?
And you can’t get a clear message when doubt is present. Instead of feeling a steady, clear wave, it would feel scrambled and wobbly-unsure of itself.
I had the best reason in the world to become practiced at Sureness. I wanted to honor this work, to deliver something true and loving and steady.
I like the word Sure. It’s different than confident. Sure is present in this moment. Present in my body, Knowing in how I move and what I am doing.
Confidence is moving forward because you trust in your judgement and acknowledge your self-worth. In Sureness, I allow myself to connect in the most clear way. I trust in my ability to Discern. I lock into a place of Clarity and I let it flow without judgement.
What comes out of me then feels Just Right. It feels like it knows itself. It’s not worried about how it sounds, it’s only concerned with speaking truth.
I wanted to write about this because the other day, I heard some words escape my mouth and they felt so good. The place they came from felt familiar. I felt like I’d been there before.
It was the place of Being in Love. Those ‘corny’ or poetic things we say when we’re in love. But in the moment, they feel just right. Spontaneous. Like they erupted straight from that place of adoration or connection with another.
We knew them to be Absolute Truth in that moment. “You have the most beautiful eyes.” In that moment, it is a statement of fact. Springing forth from your love.
When I sit with someone, I reflect back to them how they are seen by All That Is. Spirit is one name I use to refer to that massive consciousness. I reflect back how their whole self sees them, how Spirit sees them. And often times, it sounds like a love letter.
It sounds like they are seen from a place of being in love. As though that place exists whether or not you are currently ‘in love’ with a person. And maybe falling in love denotes the journey you make to that space.
The kind of journey where you pack nothing, in fact, you drop off some things to make the trip. You let go, you give in. You allow yourself to become soft and willing and float your way to Being in Love.
I dare say this place exists. And it can be traveled to at anytime, whether you have a lover or not. You float into it sometimes in meditation, or playing an instrument, or dancing, or singing.
Speaking from that place of Love feels like speaking the most definitive, sure, true and unaltered words I’ve ever spoken. They are fact. How much you are loved and adored by All That is, is fact. And there is no greater exhilaration than reflecting that love back to you.
I wanted to sit with this. How can I speak that way more often in my daily life? To speak words without judgement that are the most true. To see you (all of you) with the eyes of the whole and feel the joy that arises within me. To be unafraid to speak from that most loving space.
An invitation for you as well to find this loving space in the every day. To allow your lips to part and spontaneously give words to that love. Surprise yourself. It might be what you most need to hear, as well as the person across from you.
With Love,
Heba
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