Towards the end of 2017, I changed my diet and started on a weight lifting journey that would change me forever.
I had ideals of “what I would look like” at the “end” of my fitness journey. But the end never came, only ups and downs and variations in my overall new relationship with my body, food, and fitness.
I remember at my first peak, I was stronger and more fit than I’d ever been in my life. It felt different than I thought it would. It wasn’t as though I’d reached a destination. Rather, my body and mind felt like they were the result of a long, rich progression of practice.
I was the result or output of certain types of food, movement, and thoughts. And the results were organic and unknown until they were reached (in a continual evolution of progression).
Sure, you could predict things like getting more lean, having more energy, seeing visual muscle development…but that left so much unknown. I didn’t realize how much all the other details would matter.
The discovery of the results of prolonged, specific practices was the most thrilling and satisfying part of it all!
This is important.
We can have general ideas of what we want, and even if we think we know every specific detail of our desired manifestation – we are incorrect and/or misguided.
Our mind is only meant to take us so far, and the rest we have to walk. We have to become the player in the game, the participant in the experiment.
At some point, your idea has to be lived through you. And if you’re still waiting on the sidelines, dreaming, pointing at a distant location of your dreams… you won’t get to play.
Misery is a great gift in that it tells you, very obviously, that it’s time to get on the field. You’ve been called into the game, and maybe you didn’t notice. That’s how misery grows, when you’re accidentally still sitting instead of walking.
Success isn’t something you get. You don’t go and obtain success. You live a path that shapes you into an organic expression of a general, initial vision.
So I don’t know your dream job, or how you’ll make millions. Neither should you. It’s easy to make goals, but you find out what you’re made of when you start walking towards those goals.
You might find all kinds of gunk inside of yourself as walk. You’ll also find strength and fun and wonder that you didn’t know was in there.
It’s so important to keep walking through the gunk, around the gunk, to sweep it to the side sometimes. Don’t fight it and don’t let it confuse you; here is where all that “spiritual mumbo jumbo” comes in handy.
You cannot identify with the gunk and at the same time walk through it. The gunk has to be separated from the You that is walking. You need something with a higher perspective, like Awareness. Or God, or a modern day Shaman – a therapist, counselor, priest, trusted mentor, coach etc. (Any or all of these things.)
Some gunk takes more time than others. Some takes us on a huge detour where we forget where we going in the first place.
But when we come through, we’re more ready. We are better shaped to our desired vision, to the goal or dream.
Moving through the gunk (and the easy, good stuff too) is important not just for this current lifetime as you perceive it.
It’s important for your eternal journey. You might think that you have hopes and dreams just for this lifetime, but that’s not true. Your vision extends far past this one. And not just in a linear way, but in all directions.
You are having an experience of life in the most macro-sense to the most micro-sense. The more ethereal You is having a much slower, much less defined and specific experience. This feels like hundreds or thousands of years of life.
And there is a micro-you that is living hundreds of lifetimes in a moment.
We walk this path, not to hurry to a destination, because our destination is eternal. The plan is longer than any book anyone could fathom, and the reading of the book takes place outside of conceptual time.
Do what you feel called to do; sometimes we’re moving with an impulse that’s part of a plan we won’t see for another 300 years.
But we’re entrusted with listening, with moving with our inner guidance. We know that whatever is inspiring us in this lifetime, is part of the fabric of what we’ve chosen for endless lifetimes. Part of a long story.
Move toward your greatest dream, because who you become in the process is important and relevent.
Moreover, the best parts of life are seeing yourself transform and discover. To Become that which matches the vision is your mind, in an unexpected and organic way.
[Stay tuned for Part 2.]
<3,
Heba
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